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Today's Prompt: FEAR
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I lay next to him in the dark because my presence is still
enough to conquer his fears. I’m
squeezed next to his tiny body on a twin-sized bed that swallows his frame and
I think how big he seems when he’s moving at the speed of life. But in the silence, surrounded by his fear, I
realize how small he really is and how this spinning sphere stands still when we
are trembling in the shadows. And I whisper thanks that I’m the first soldier he
calls to the battlefield and I pray that I am teaching him well about the One
who comes with me, the One who goes ahead of us both. The One who lights up a room because in Him
there is no darkness.
Fear… it starts small in a child’s bedroom with the nocturnal
sounds and the long shadows and the dark of night.
Over time, it grows into adult-sized worry, or even full-on
paralysis, keeping God-sized dreams in the shadows of our anxiety. As I lay there, he has no idea I’m battling
fears of my own. He called on me because he
thinks I’m courageous. He called on me
because He knew I’d come.
As we nestle together and dream our what-ifs right there in
the dark where danger lurks, I start to hear Jesus’ words in his deep, tiny boy
voice sharing wishes that are bigger than both of us. A child doesn’t know how to think within
walls or dream with rules and boundaries or put limits on possibilities. A child believes all things are possible
as long as you have a Friend to walk with through the darkness, past your circumstances.
“With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26)
He finally lets go, exhales his fears to the ground as his
eyelids close soft. I watch him breathe
for a minute before I get up. As I walk
the steps from his bed to the door in quiet darkness, I smile knowing I’m in
the presence of a great Friend, both in the darkness and the light. And I pray that when the darkness closes in,
suffocating my dreams, I can muster the courage to speak one word.
Jesus.
(Psalm 27:1, 4, 7-8)
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